Wednesday, October 31, 2012

P4 Check!!

They literally only took an hour and a half to let me know that my progesterone is 16.1!!!!!!!!

That is the highest number I have ever had!  I am so thankful that the Femera helped with my progesterone just like my RE said she thought it would.  Now just to wait it out another week to see if the cycle was a success in the pregnancy department!

Happy Halloween!

I will be going in for my P4 test today and I'll be sure to update tomorrow, but today I want to make this post all about Halloween!  I love this holiday!  I'm not too much of a decorator yet, but when we have kids I'm going to go all out on spooking out the house.  For now, E and I just have a lot of fun dressing up.  We even stay in character the whole night.

This year I went as a kitty cat and E went as Aladeen from the movie The Dictator:


This was our first year not doing a couple themed costume. We went to a friend's house party and then out to a pub crawl.  I think Halloween is the wildest holiday around here!  Everyone was a mess.  Except me because of course I am still not drinking, but I still had a blast!

Now for your viewing pleasure, costumes from the past with E and I..... (I wasn't able to find all the years)

2011- From the move Burlesque

2010- Jersey Shore "Snookie" and "Ron" (We had the whole cast too)



2009- Greek Gods


Have a fun and safe Halloween!!!

-L


Monday, October 29, 2012

Blog Award!

The sweet Alexis at Our Journey Through This Lovely Life has nominated me for the Liebster Blog Award! 


Here are the questions she gave me:


1. Do you remember your Dreams? Most of them I do.  I have very vivid dreams as well.  The craziest part is that a lot of times my dreams are what I consider "premonitions".  They usually end up happening.
2. What was the last thing you bought? Besides groceries, I bought a pair of yellow/goldish skinny jeans for Vandy games. :)
3. Is the glass half empty or half full? Depends on the day lol.  Today half full!
4. What's under your bed? Space saver bags full of winter clothes I need to pull out, a couple small suitcases, and bin with my flat shoes in them.
5. Have you ever won the lottery? I think I won $7 dollars a few months ago.
6.  Are you a morning person or a night owl? Probably more of a night owl.
7. text or phone call? Phone call.  A lot of time when my friends text me I just call them back to answer. 
8. Do you sing in the shower? Not usually.  I blare music though ;)
9. If you could change something about your home with out
 worrying about expense or mess what would it be? So many things!  First would be all hardwood floors.  We have about 50% of our home in carpet and I hate it.  I'm so grossed out by carpet.
10. Do you blog for yourself or for your followers?  It started out just for myself so I could document this whole journey I'm on with IF, but now I think if someone going through the same thing can benefit from it I would love it.  Dealing with IF can feel lonely sometimes so it's nice to know someone has been in your shoes and is there for you.  I'd like to be that person for someone.
11. Why did you start blogging?  To document my IF journey and to get out how I'm feeling.
 
 
 
Now for my own nominations!:
 
-Sabrina at Free Aire
-Nicole at In Nic's Mind
 
Here are my questions for you:
 
1. What is an interesting fact about yourself no one would know?
2. What do you do in your spare time?
3. What one thing are you most proud of?
4. If you had unlimited money for one week, how would you spend it?
5. Where is your favorite vacation spot?
6. What is the most daring thing you've ever done?
7. Who influences you the most?
8. What one thing confuses you the most about your husband?
9. What is your most favorite meal?
10. What was the last law you broke?
11. If you had to wear one color forever, what would it be?
 
(Copy and past the questions then answer them, nominate fellow bloggers with less than 200 followers 
make sure to save the photo above to use when you post about your award)
 
-L

I hate you FF!!

For the first time I am really mad at FF!  I could have sworn I O'd on CD13 based on ovulation pain, RE monitoring, positive OPK and temp spike the next morning.  However, now FF is saying I most likely O'd on CD15 because of the positive OPK on CD14 as well and continuing temp spike.

Our timing with the new O date is now O-3, O-2, and O-1.  That's right, we missed O day. Ugh!! I guess that timing is still good and E still thinks our chances are good.  Please look at my chart and give me your opinion.  So instead of going in today to get the blood draw I am thinking tomorrow or Wednesday.  I freaking hate charting!! 


-L

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Quick update

I have to make this quick and run, but yesterday I went in for my monitoring appointment with my RE.  It's clear that we will have to start scheduling these earlier in my cycle if this month doesn't work out because I O'd the same day I went in.  She said I had a very large follie and one a bit smaller than that ready to go.  Most likely I only had one follie make it though.  Yesterday after my appointment I had O pains which the only time I've ever had those was yesterday and the cycle I was on Clomid.  Interesting.  I also got a positive OPK yesterday evening.



This morning my temp spiked, but I still had a positive OPK this morning as well.  I go in for blood work on Monday so I'm praying my progesterone is at a normal level for a medicated cycle.

Also, E says he feels really good about this cycle and thinks this is it.  I hope his intuition is right!  But, he said if this cycle doesn't work out he is ready to move on to IUI!  I think he is getting tired of waiting and just ready to be aggressive with it.  I'm really happy that we are finally on the same page with treatment.  But here is hoping we don't have to do anymore!! 

I just found out my acupuncturist is closing down her community style sessions and only doing private so I am moving to a new practice after this month.  I'm so sad to stop seeing her, but I need the prices that only community style can offer. 

Now let's all pray the sperm finds the egg this cycle!!

-L

Monday, October 22, 2012

CD 13

For the first time in months I think I might actually O text book style.  Based on my CM and temps plummeting today I think I am going to O tonight or tomorrow.  I go to my RE today for monitoring so I'm excited to see what she says too.  Hopefully I'll have one big follie ready to go!   Remember back when you were anxious for your first day of school, prom, or your wedding?  That is the same excited anxiety I'm having about O'ing this month.  I know that is super weird, but I am just excited to have a chance to get KU.

Also, I'm running by to see my acupuncturist again today.  I took a break from her for a month or so just to give myself a break from all of this IF crap, but I feel like I really need her now.  She is one of those people that just makes me feel like everything is right in the world and helps me stay calm.  Maybe she will have a plan to help support a healthy ovulation too.

E and I have started opening up to some of our closer friends about our IF as well.  I'm not really sure why except that maybe it helps us recognize that this is real and it's not anything to hide or be ashamed of.  I'm not sure it's a good idea, but it feels more natural than hiding it.  So far everyone has been really sweet.  I spent some time with my friend who just had a baby on Saturday.  I told her what I am going through and she was just full of "advice" that no one going through IF wants to hear.  "Relax, don't take corporation drugs, let the sperm build up then have sex, etc." It was a flurry of uneducated reproductive information.  But I just have to keep reminding myself that if you haven't went through it, it can be hard to understand.  I can't expect her or anyone else to know all the details that we do and most likely she is trying to help.  Still, it burns when someone is telling you crazy stuff that you know better than because you have spent over a year researching it.  But, that's what we get for telling people....

-L

Friday, October 19, 2012

I love this!

My best friend J sent me a chat this morning about something she heard on the radio that made her think of me.  She warned me it is a little emotional, but that she knows E and I will be great parents and can't wait until we have this news to celebrate as well.  She is seriously such a blessing in my life and I'm not sure what I would do without her.  Here is the radio clip:


-L

Thursday, October 18, 2012

CD9

Most people seem to dread the time between ovulation and your period (2ww), but not me.  I find that to be the least stressful time in a cycle.  You've done all you can do and now you just sit and wait for a BFP or AF to show.  That time seems to go by pretty fast for me. 
What I really hate is the time leading up to ovulation.  It feels like time is slowly creeping by.  Everyday you are drinking green tea, lots of water, and some drink POM juice (yuck).  You are peeing on ovulation predictor tests twice a day and of course checking for all signs of O.  This stresses me out big time!  Especially being on a medicated cycle I'm not exactly sure when O will come for sure.  I usually O on CD16, but who knows if it will change this month?!  I'm always worried our timing won't be perfect.  So sex-a-thon starts today.  I try every other day until I get a positive OPK then everyday, but I still always wonder if that is good enough. 
So as you can see waiting and watching for something to come and hoping you're doing everything perfectly is very stressful! 
But I'm feeling very optimistic about this cycle so far so I'm keeping my fingers crossed this will work!

On another note, we had household changes again.  My SIL moved out yesterday due to disagreements between her and E.  She is very mad at him right now, but he did nothing wrong.  He is worried for her and looking out for her best interest.  She is not really one to take responsibility for her own actions and constantly makes herself the victim.  I hate to see them at odds, but I know it is what is best for all of us right now.  Hopefully with our home being just to the two of us again my stress level will go down dramatically.

Hope you all have a lovely day!

-L

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Little Wonders

Came across this song today that uplifted me.  Hope you enjoy!




-L

Monday, October 15, 2012

CD 6

Tomorrow is my last day of Letrozole.  I literally have no side effects which makes me almost wonder how could this little pill even help?  Just like anyone else TTC I have have so many mixed emotions during the day.  I start out thinking it will never work then end up feeling like this is totally going to work.  I feel like a nut case!  Here is the magic little pill:


Also, I started drinking green tea and temping again.  I think my BBT is dying a slow death so I'm worried my temps will be all over the place as they clearly already are. 

Yesterday, my yoga teacher pulled me aside to talk to me about my acne.  Yes, I have dealt with horrible acne since my early teens and nothing has ever helped it.  I have tried almost everything!  Now that I'm TTC there are very few things I can use that are safe.  He pulled me aside to let me know he had dealt with the same thing and the only thing that helped was cutting out dairy.  Apparently some people have a dairy allergy that causes acne.  So I've decided to give it a try.  You'd be surprised how many things you eat have dairy in them!  This will be a struggle, but if I get good results I promise to do a before and after photo. 

-L

Friday, October 12, 2012

CD3: Day 1 of Letrozole

Today was day 1 of Letrozole.  I will continue taking one 2.5mg pill a day until CD7.  My RE decided not to do Progesterone this cycle because she thinks the Letrozole will fix my progesterone.  We will see about that one since Clomid was supposed to do that and actually made my progesterone lower.  I'll go in on the 22nd for monitoring and then for bloodwork on CD21. 

That is all for me today, but I wanted to give a big shout out to my friend Sabrina who is KTFU!!!  Congrats again girl!  You are going to make a great mommy!!

-L

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

CD1

So just as expected and right on time for me, AF came today.  I feel like crap physically, but I'm really excited to start a medicated cycle. 

I called my RE this morning to let her know it was CD1, now I'm just waiting to hear back on the specifics.  I'm ready!!



-L

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Weekend Recap

This past weekend my parents were in town from Missouri and we had such a great visit with them.  My parents are seriously my best friends so being around them is exactly what I needed during this stressful time.  They know how to calm me down and give me the best advice.



We are having a lot of crazy family drama happening in my husbands family right now.  I can't really talk about it on here, but any prayers for strength and serenity would be greatly appreciated.

Yesterday, my friend and I went to a place called Center of Symmetry and bought a bunch of new age stuff for getting me KU.  It's actually kind of silly, but so are we.  Here is a little Venus figure you are supposed to carry around with you to help promote fertility.  Again, so silly.



Today I am 12DPO.  I took a test this morning and BFN as expected.  However, I found a pharmacy within my husband's company and Letrozole will only cost me $5 through them!!!  At any other pharmacy it will be $100.  That was a blessing that I really needed right now.  Hopefully AF will show up tomorrow and we can get this show on the road!

-L

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Circle & Bloom

I finally bought in to Circle & Bloom.  For those of you who aren't familiar, Circle & Bloom is a series of guided audio meditation and visualization for those trying to conceive.  They have a set for natural cycles and a set for IUI/IVF cycling. 


This is the download I purchased.  You can find more info here.  I listened to cycle day 22 last night and I can say it is very relaxing!  I fell asleep right after.  I'm excited to start using it from CD1 next month!  There are many good reviews on it so if you are super stressed like me it's worth checking out.  Also, you can search for discounts for the downloads on google.

So today is CD23 and I think I am about 7 days past ovulation (DPO).  Even though my chances for this cycle are slim to none, I have a crap ton of pee sticks so I think I might actually start testing at 9 or 10 DPO.

-L

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Crazy Lady

I forgot to tell you that I finally got that cute onsie in that I plan on being my "announcement" to E.  It is perfect too!  So I wrapped it in this little gift box that I can open and slip a test in underneath when the time comes.  I'm hiding it in my bathroom counter because I know when I finally get a positive test I won't last two steps outside the bathroom before telling E.




Also, I was having a crappy IF day yesterday so I did something I have never done.  I thought if I would buy something for future baby it would put good vibes out to the universe.  So I bought this....



When E got home I made the mistake of showing him my buy and now he thinks I'm officially crazy.  He doesn't think you should buy anything for a baby that doesn't exist yet.  I'm pretty sure he thinks I've lost touch with reality lol.  And then I felt really stupid for buying it.  He just said "you are silly".  Oh well, whatever gets me through the day.

-L

Monday, October 1, 2012

Don't Say Anything At All

I have nothing nice to say today.  I'm completely overwhelmed by all the crazy people in my life that I'm about to snap.  So instead of being all doom and gloom I'll just post a couple quotes about how I feel today.